Perplexity

What the hell is this?! I'm really really bewildered.

Ever since that day...It really felt different. I started feeling this ever since December. I thought by turning my attention to another 'person' will mislead you from my *****. But I was wrong...It just got deeper and deeper. What should I do? should I just kept quiet? (I think that would be the best choice for now).

I don't want to show any motive. I'm so over with that move. Last time it did not work. It just got worse.

I know that you don't feel anything special. Or I don't know. That's what we are. Nothing. Or maybe...just maybe...Unsure and Pending.

I don't know what will happen.
Fine! yes i'm envious with some people. I can't help it. You can't blame me. And I can't blame you either. I'm not someone who should and I don't have the slightest right to be like this.:(

Random thoughts

So much has happened again...

Here are my Random thoughts.

*) And now I can say that I'm better and ready to become a better person.

*) People don't change, their roles do...In my case, it's true.

*) We are preparing for privatization once we leave the university. Hope it goes well this year.

*) Our friendship is still on the rocks...I hope we could get back the way we were before. Like family.

*) Am I confused? but I read here that it was not until December that I felt this again...oh God..help me.

*) I am now a senior college student. I still can't quite absorb that. I mean, it's very fast. How time flew, i was not really aware. When I woke up, I just blurted out "Oh my, I'm a senior. Next year I'll be graduating (am I?) of course!" haha.

*) I still keep a journal aside from online blogging just so I can write instantly my thoughts and activities in a day to day basis since I don't own a netbook...yet. But I'm planning to buy someday...or a tablet I guess...*crossed-fingers

Too many to mention...xD

^*^) My root canal session finished last May 24, 2011...my teeth is okay now...i supposed 'cause I could eat again on the left side of my mouth..:D

^*^) We went to clarissa's debut. It was a fun celebration, though simple yet memorable..:D
I do think she and her family were very glad and appreciative of our presence..:D

^*^) We are in a crucial situation right now...Our trainer resigned in his post. And now we are all alone (but I don't think that way). Although it looks like we were left behind I still pray that this is God's will and He has plans...good plans for us. Please pray for our group. Thank you.

^*^) I decided not to pursue the position of the President in Samahan ng Iskolar ng Bayan due to various reasons...to be precise I just want to focus on Kasibulan, especially now that we don't have anymore our trainer...

^*^) It still hurts...and I still feel the same when he said to me the truth that day...awww..='(