Sunday, February 28, 2010

Shattered, Broken, Verdict. Moving Further!













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otal darkness...It's penetrating my innermost entity...
I want it to drop...I want it to come out, but it won't.
I'm in the middle of melancholy...of pain...of anguish.
I'm numb. Is everyone opposing me?
No. I don't think so.
My insides are splintered.
I'm confused. I'm frightened.
Would someone help me?!
You couldn't. You wouldn't.
You won't understand me.Some could.

I see light. Is it over? No. He's punishing me. I accept it.
Everything is a risk.
Everything has a reason.
Everything has consequence.
It'll be over soon. He promised. I'll rely to it.
Have faith, he told me.

I trusted you. You said you'll be true. You broke it. And I hated you for it.
You lied to me. You hurt me more than anyone who could ever hurt me.
You've impaired me emotionally, psychologycally.
I waited, yet nothing came. I knew you wouldn't, but you didn't tell me.
I feel resentful. You made me feel mortified, indignant.
The pain is too much. you're not really worth for what I've waited.
She's right. I too, realized that fact. It's true that's why it's painful.

Everything doesn't END here. I don't revolve around you.
You're no longer the same I knew a long time ago.
It's such a shame. Well that's for you. Not for me.
There's really nothing permanent in this world, only change.
You're one of them, I hate to say.
I thought of you as different, but you disappointed me.
Now, I could live without you. You made me feel this way.
I'm sure you didn't regret anything. I wish you do.
Call it bitterness. Call it egotism. Call it insensitivity.
But this pain won't cease. Until...who knows??

Saturday, February 13, 2010

Full Load

At last Midterm's over...Or not? yeah...we haven't had our exams to most of our subjects

~How do I explain this.?! ahaha...