It's been so long....

Yeah...
it has been so long...
since I last posted here...
First of all, school has been keeping me so busy
in addition to my commitments in Kasibulan..
well ever since the Grand finals (July 24), our performances were non-stop...
We just had our break since the holidays started, and mind you only this Dec. 23...
cause our last guesting was in Villamor Airbase last Dec. 22, which was one of the best and unforgettable experience we ever had...we were transported at the venue by a 6x6 military vehicle...^__^ I loved it!!!

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New year again has yet to come...
I really missed my old friends...wish I could see and talk to them like the old days...

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We're still in the midst of our Thesis writing...I'm glad we finished yesterday until Chapter 3...

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@ur kind: Why do I hate them so much? cause their a bunch of liars and scum...

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@a special something: Why are you treating me like this? I'm not used to it...just get back to how you are to me before, okay? you know I really care for you, right? I hope you can read this..

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@the notebook: And you, stop flirting~! especially when you already have someone to take care of you....I mean except for your mother...the heck! so disgusting~

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@the mobile: I don't have anything else to say to you...I'm so sorry...don't talk to me please...I just can't feel you anymore...I don't blame you...but sometimes, I do...

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@someoneveryinteresting: I hope you enjoy my company..don't get the wrong Idea...but honestly, I really like you, but I know it's forbidden...but why not? I just want to enjoy what we have and what we are right now..just remember to beep me if something comes up, I'll be happy to listen.lovelots.


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enjoy the rest of the holidays, my friends!>.<

The Showtime Experience!

"Do not use your failures yesterday as an excuse to do better and strive harder today..."
quoted from Vice-Ganda on July 24, 210 at Showtime the Finals.


First off, I congratulate XB - Gensan for being Showtime's First Grand Champion!!! ^_^
I thank you in behalf of Kasibulan the little times we had. Those fun memories will be a keepsake forever...

I also congratulate Philippine Islands Assassin, Savannah Kids, Mortal Combat and the Showgays, Perlas ng Silangan, E-Crew, Beatguys, Boyz Unlimited, Sensei and Enlighten Black Theater Group for the extraordinary performance they all have given...you guys made all your fans and supporters proud of you...

And lastly, I would like to congratulate our Group! Kasibulan, we may have lost today...but our supporters, fans, friends and families never let us feel like losers...They were there behind us. never failed to cheer and make us feel at ease.^_^ Thank you guys!
This is just the beginning of our new journey...Never forget to thank God for all our blessings because He is the reason for all these...God bless to all of you...

どのような理由ができる？

The title says...What could be the reason?

I'm a little bit perplexed. I don't know the thing I had done to make a particular person (so special to me) I don't know...upset?! But then she said that I must not talk to her.

I don't really understand...It's been like this between us for a year. Technical reasons?! what technical reasons is she talking about?

If you're reading this...I hope that in God's time, everything will be okay just like before. Before you left...

Maybe this is really what life is all about...

You lose someone very important that you feel like dying cause a piece of yourself has gone and far from your grasp. It's difficult. This feeling...

I think I'm going to burst...I hate and I'm afraid of losing a person..especially if that person has become like my sister.

To you oneechan, whatever reasons you have...I respect them. I just pray that our friendship would come back. I don't want to lose you too. NOT YOU. But if I had become so bothersome to the extent that you won't talk to me for a year...then maybe I just have to look at you from afar. But I will be waiting for you because you'll forever be my BEST FRIEND. Nothing and no one can ever replace you in my ♥...Aishiteru watashi no nakama...tomodachi ichiban. Take care of yourself and God bless you and your family. So long. Until we meet again (I'm still hoping and praying for you).

Kasibulan - Batangas Beach Challenge

We had our 2nd Kasibulan Challenge in Mahacot, Batangas last May 18, 2010.
It was a lot of adventure, extreme challenges and of course, fun!!!

I won't ever forget everything that happened that day. I will treasure every moment we had shared.

The first challenge was like an amazing race where we were asked to collect certain ingredients all over the neighborhood of mahacot..^^ our team was the first one to collect all the ingredients, happy to say!

Then the next challenge, we butchered the chicken, pulled out all its feather and cleanse it with water until it was ready to be cooked. It was kinda difficult, but we managed.^^

The third challenge was to clean a piggery.^^

Then we headed to the beach for the next challenge.
We made a presentation and the place was filled with laughter when it was our turn. I think our presentation was really funny and all haha! I can still remember it.
Then the next one is a challenge wherein we must fill a bottle with seawater and solve a math problem...we got second place.

The last challenge was blind volleyball. Blind, because we cannot see the other group. It's like a surprise game. We got first place!

After the game, we proceeded to the announcement of TOP (Top Ten Outstanding Performers) Kasibulan. And fortunately, I got rank 1...^_^

Then the awarding for the challenge went on. I got first place again in the hand art. And overall, we got second place. Although we didn't get to win the first place, we had so much fun and that was enough for me! Congratulations to Darren's group for winning! It was a good game!!!

FOR you and for YOU

It's hard to say this, but I guess you have to move on...
but we're still friends, aren't we?
of course, you yourself said that too. Thanks for being true to me..always..
I'm sorry if there were times that I wasn't of that much help to you
I hope that in my own little ways,
I have contributed positive outcomes in your life.^^
Thanks for being a part of me. I'll see you soon.
Like I always tell you, I remain your friend. And forever I'll be...


On the other side...


It's very hard to make a wise decision...
You have to consider many things before making one...
Right now...I'm through with this bewilderment...
I won't let myself be engulfed within the darkness...
I have to decide! yes..and I did...I shall wait for the rest to happen...

I have chosen alternative options...
but I guess this is for the best...
I regret what I acted before...I acted so stupidly..
Sorry to judge you. I didn't mean it...actually I mean it..that time..
But I guess it was me...I am such a hypocrite..sorry to misjudge you.

Sorry that I can't help myself from telling you...but that is the truth.
I don't want to hide it forever...because sooner or later...
you'll find out about it too.
And I guess this would be the best time to tell you.
I always pray that I have made the right decision.
That this decision wouldn't make me regret everything...

All I wanted is to show you how much I care for you.
I have no expectations...I just want to be honest to you and to myself.
I hope you understand. I don't want to ruin our friendship.
It's the best thing that ever happened to me.
The day that you became my best friend...
and...I shall treasure that forever...whatever happens.^^

Start of Vacation..or is it?!

Phew! at last!!!2nd year's over!!! I'll be 3rd year next semester..~yataa!!!

I can't believe it! We've done it!!! We really finished all our deadlines, projects and requirements. I thought I'll be drop dead before everything would be finished! Thanks God, without You, we wouldn't make it.^^ I'm so thankful 'cause I'm so blessed.

It's the start of my term break...well, school I suppose, but my extra curricular is not yet done.
We'll be practicing for the Grand Finals of Showtime. So no time for vacation...just a little I guess. Pray for us. Thank you for the support guys!!! especially our friends there at PLMun!! Keep on rocking PLMunians!!! ahaha...>.<

Shattered, Broken, Verdict. Moving Further!

Total darkness...It's penetrating my innermost entity...

I want it to drop...I want it to come out, but it won't.
I'm in the middle of melancholy...of pain...of anguish.
I'm numb. Is everyone opposing me?
No. I don't think so.
My insides are splintered.
I'm confused. I'm frightened.
Would someone help me?!
You couldn't. You wouldn't.
You won't understand me.Some could.

I see light. Is it over? No. He's punishing me. I accept it.
Everything is a risk.
Everything has a reason.
Everything has consequence.
It'll be over soon. He promised. I'll rely to it.
Have faith, he told me.

I trusted you. You said you'll be true. You broke it. And I hated you for it.
You lied to me. You hurt me more than anyone who could ever hurt me.
You've impaired me emotionally, psychologycally.
I waited, yet nothing came. I knew you wouldn't, but you didn't tell me.
I feel resentful. You made me feel mortified, indignant.
The pain is too much. you're not really worth for what I've waited.
She's right. I too, realized that fact. It's true that's why it's painful.

Everything doesn't END here. I don't revolve around you.
You're no longer the same I knew a long time ago.
It's such a shame. Well that's for you. Not for me.
There's really nothing permanent in this world, only change.
You're one of them, I hate to say.
I thought of you as different, but you disappointed me.
Now, I could live without you. You made me feel this way.
I'm sure you didn't regret anything. I wish you do.
Call it bitterness. Call it egotism. Call it insensitivity.
But this pain won't cease. Until...who knows??

Full Load

At last Midterm's over...Or not? yeah...we haven't had our exams to most of our subjects

~How do I explain this.?! ahaha...

~Sayonara...Cheebeebee-kun~

currently listening to: Eternity ~Memory of Lightwaves~

Our pet dog, Cheebeebee just died last December 31, 2009.

~We were really sad when he died. And I cried...so bad...
He was really a part of the family. He was already 7 in human years and 49 in dog years last Dec. 5. We were not really sure why he got sick. He just vomit and lost his appetite. He did not eat for 3 days. And at 8 am last Dec. 31...he was gone...forever.
But I think he lived a good life. After all this dog is a spoiled brat.>.< And I really love him. I pray for his soul and I know that he is already in the good hands of the Lord.