Sadness and Sorrow

I really don't understand what's happening...I feel sad about reni-neechan leaving the forum...I just feel so helpless...can't do much to help my nakama...and dont' know what to do...oh God please help me...

I hope this will not affect our friendship...If it will, then I'm leaving too...it can't be help

I'm not trying to become number one or be the best...that never came up to me...but if being number one means you have to be alone and leave your bestfriend behind, then it would be better for me not to have that place and I'll choose to stay behind in the last number with my bestfriend because I'm not the kind of person to just let go of the persons who are so special to me and I'm not the kind who leaves them in midair...I hate those kind of people...

mou...I'm starting to cry...I hate this feeling...why does it have to be like this?naze?!

Camping??

well, what did we have for today?

I got smoked after cooking macaroni soup...and take note...we cooked using charcoal and wood. It was difficult to start the fire, but we still managed to produce one. I'm just wondering why we were asked to do this survival task, because in the first place our NSTP is Literacy Training Services and not community service. But anyway, I had a lot of fun and even my group members had a good time and enjoyed while we were cooking the soup...and I think this activity also helped us developed group skills and bonding at the same time...it challenged our leadership and cooperation...^__^